143 to me...............

I can remember one my friend during 11th Standard ( P.U.C Ist year) used to tell me " Belive in Dogs and animals but don't believe in Girls,which is known as sweet poison.Once it veins and gains in your body you cannot leave.If snake bites 101% you can leave but in case of sweet poison 202% you cannot leave".
I was totally disagreed with him.Had lots time controversy on this issue.........
But sometimes vice versa may be the case.
when it comes to me..........it is something different.I can still remember while pursuing B.com i used to study with Krishna Govilkar he was doing B.A he used to tell me the great Philosopher OSHO has told "Love has two types one is Physical love and another love is mental love,what we do is physical love only,we never do mental love".
I never understood the crux of this philosophy...............
I agree Love is Blind,it can happen at any time,with any person.............
I too fallen love ..........i will not tell her name...........it might be from one side.....bcz i never expressed my feelings to her....and she too don't understand my feelings.........I thought once i clear my CA i will propose her...........
My luck was not with me....i am not blaming my luck it is me i did not come from CA exam..........if i could come out i would have got job and proposed her........there is no question of blaming anybody..........
it is me only spoiled my life........She is also right despite my two attempts i did not come out.........how she can believe and wait for me........since she also had lots of burden,pressure from family.How best she can convince to them.
Anyway she is committed and shortly going to be marry...........this is my biggest battle that i am going to loose in my life.....even if i clear CA now still i am looser..........When i think about her just i say we are not made for each other in this life.
It is true that someone somewhere is made for you.so many time s we met with her but we cannot recognize her that she is your life partner.
Rudyard Kipling has rightly said "Everything will be happen at it's appointed time" we need not have to do anything to that.But we can take necessary measures to avoid once you know it is suppose to happen.Further he told before going to happen anything it first gives you the indication that it is going to happen that we cannot recognize.I too got lots of indication,signals.
Anyways i am trying to forget her ,because career most important to me.My mummy ,pappa,brother and sister waiting for me to clear CA........."To achieve something will have to loose something",i lost too much as on day.
But one thing that i can do now is i cannot believe..................and i will show that i was not wrong........whatever i did was circumstance and facts necessities that to do me.
Loves second name is Sacrifice..........i will do it........whatever i promised to her i will accomplish that.
Whatever the people say about her i know she is right..........because she cannot be wrong at any time..........
but when i remember this" don't guess a person by looking at his present position because time has the power to change ordinary coal in to precious stone".